frustration caused by that damn guy!
it’s been more than a week that this life’s like shit..!
all the frustrations.. they flood into me..
that one guy..
that damn one guy..
every night i’ve been crying..
wasting my tears..
sobbing myself to sleep..
crying has been my lullaby.. my bedtime story..
every night..
one night, he told me he doubts my purpose..
that night, i felt like a suspect under surveillance of a spy..anytime i may be dragged to prison without even knowing why.. i put my trust to him, yet he still doubted..arghhh!
that same accusation of infidelity has been the constant issue in us..
and shit! it hurts like hell!
another frustrating situation..
he left me alone outside the gate at 4am!
just because of a simple discourse, a misunderstanding (which I cant even remember what that was).. he walked away.. leaving me in that freakin’ place..alone! (that day was the worst day ever!that was the same day i punched a taxi out of rage! and had zero for my calculus! and texted someone shit!)
just when everything’s so messed up, the one guy you think that would understand me, walked away!
yesterday, i waited for him to come to the place we said we’d meet..so long..he came telling me that he wont come because he’s tired! (talking about tired, i am so very tired!)
this morning, we woke up so early for church..the carenderia was still closed so i hurriedly prepared breakfast for him. i even burned my hand accidentally with the hot water. when i served it to him, he refused to eat! waaaahhh!!
at church, things went fine..
we even planned to watch a movie..
and guess what happened?!
he didn’t keep his word!
he said he’s so tired so he had to rest..
waaahh!
am i that insignificant ro him?!
this is too much!i’ve always been trying my best to extend my patience..to keep the relationship going..
but until when shall i cry myself to sleep?
until when shall i be like this?!
Uncategorized | Comments (3)everyone…they all left me behind…
how would you feel when the world turns its back from you?!
i have always been the person who cant get over something once i get attached to it…
now, where am i?!
actually, the more suitable question is..
WHERE IS EVRYONE?!?
why am i alone?!
my friends are slowly getting away..
the friends i thought would always be there..but they have all been starting to live a life so different..a life which doesnt include me..
and the one thing i thought would not leave me?!
..just went away.. left me in this damn noisy internet cafe..
now, i cling to nothing..
nothing..
no one..
and it hurts like hell..
Uncategorized | Comment (0)when life gets shittingly confusing…
just when my life seems happy
something attacks me so badly
the greatest problem with this?
i dont know what that something is…
i wish i could just close my eyes
and sleep endlessly
but here in my bed the nightmare lies
a monster that keeps haunting me…
the fake!
everything’s just fake
all of them they suck!
i wanna stab my own back…
Uncategorized | Comment (0)a whole day in south…
nangadto ming kent sa south (cebu) gahapon…
whole day jud oi…
kapoya lagi…
pero ayos kay lingaw man…
naga…
carcar…
argao…
dalaguete…
boljoon…
5 stopovers…
5 churches…
5 rides…
it was a memorable day..
naay dagat atbang sa dalaguete ug boljoon church…nindot kaayo ang place!
dagat…
the place i love the most…
haaaayy…
how romantic…
toinkz!
heheh..
naa raba koy secret with the dagat…
kung kinsa gani first na guy nga ko makuyog sa may dagat kay…..
secret….
hehehhe…
Uncategorized | Comment (0)valentine’s day…
it’s hearts’ day again…
and i kept my tradition of wearing black during feb 14.. hehehhe
wala lang..just wanna be different…
heheheh…
am i happy?
ambot..
siguro..
im not sure…
ah basta!
happy valentine’s day ninyo tanan…!
Uncategorized | Comment (0)three damn words…
three words keep haunting me…
i cant take it off my mind…
three words that never give me peace…
how could i be so blind…
three words how painful could it be…
wish it’s still possible for a rewind…
three words he told me…
not "i love you"…
but "i hate you"…
so unkind…
Uncategorized | Comment (0)shit nimo!
"Why"
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn’t you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don’t care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you’re far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It’s not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we’re not saying
Let’s play, a different game than what we’re playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I’m gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you’re far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It’s not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you’re far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
A Y E L
IPAL!!!!
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